Resignation (Again!)

"It is with deep regret that I tender my formal notice of resignation effective..." I have written this line 3 times in 3 years of my working life. An average of 1 per year. Not bad. Hehe. Yes, once again, I am resigning from my job of 9 months as an IT analyst. This time though, I am resigning without any clear path of what I'm gonna do next. Well, yes more likely I want to get a job soon. But currently, I dont think that I'd be having one soon. This time, however, I need to get a job that is not just a job that pays my expenses monthly, but a job that I would really love & enjoy and would not think of writing another one of those lines above. I am turning 24 this year, I have been working for 3 years and sad to say, I think I am going nowhere. I want to stop myself from becoming a certified whiner. Because really, I know, it wont do me any good. And I dont know to whom should I whine to ( I think I ran out of listening ears..hehe). I think the problem with me is that I do not know what I like to do. I am searching, waiting till lightning strikes me. But alas, it has not come yet. I am tired of waiting.

Waiting is painful; forgetting is painful. But not knowing what to do is the worst kind of suffering.
-Paulo Coehlo, By The River Piedra, I Sat Down and Wept.

Writing this, I want to put the lyrics of one of my favorite songs here( to balance the negativity..hehe). It's beautifully written. It's full of hope and everytime I think that I want this all to be over, I think of the song's lyrics and it makes me want to go on again and wait for that sweet sunshower to come my way...

Sunshower
Chris Cornell (from Great Exepectations OST)

Dark as roses, fine as sand
Feel your healing and your sting again
I hear you laughing and my soul is saved
On forgotten graves you cry

Crawl like ivy up my spine
Through my nerves and into my eyes
Cuts like anguish
Or recollections of better days gone by

But it’s all right
When you’re caught in pain
And you feel the rain come down
It’s all right
When you find your way
Then you see it disappear
It’s all right
Though your garden’s grey
I know all your graces
Someday will flower
In the sweet sunshower

Eyes like oceans so far away
A feather trail to a better way
Worried mornings turn into days
Then into worried nights

But it’s all right
When you’re all in pain
And you feel the rain come down
Oh it’s all right
When you find your way
Then you see it disappear
Oh it’s all right
Though your garden’s grey
I know all your graces
Someday will flower
Oh in the sweet sunshower
Oh in the sweet sunshower
In the sweet sunshower

I know all your graces
Someday will flower
In the sweet sunshower
And it’s all right
All you’ll be you are today
Are today
It’s all right
All you’ll be you are today
Are today.........