Jellybean

I am finally a mother. I am a mom to a 2 month old baby, who happens to be a furry little thing, that barks rather than baby talk and eats from a stainless plate instead of a feeding bottle. Yes, I am a mother to a bouncing little baby puppy! And I am thoroughly excited about it! it's my first time to have a pet of my own. ALthough we've had lots of pets at home, they have always been family's pet and never Pet's pet. (Pet is my nickname at home). I am excited but at the same time, I am dead nervous, because I may not take care of her the way puppies should be taken cared of (yes, I take his quite seriously..hehe). I read a lot on ways of how to care of dogs on the internet, but somehow, each website have different ideas on the best way of taking care of them. For instance, there was this website that I first visited that says you should never feed dogs "real food", real, meaning food that men consumes, and just stick with commercialized dog food preferably recommended by a vet. But just yesterday, as I surfed the net for more info on taking care of dogs, this one website says that veterinarians are saying that the best dog food is "real food" provided that they are always fresh. So now, I am confused, but I decided that I'd stick with the dog food, since they are easier to prepare (katamaran!) and just give her "real" food as a treat. Oh well, too much about food. Hehe. Anyway, amidst all this confusion, I am nevertheless happy of having her around, as I've said to a friend, it keeps me afloat from the possibility of sinking further into depression.It brings me a sense of joy and a sense of responsibility, knowing that her survival partly depends on me (partly, because she might have hereditary disease that i may not know of, & if she dies because of it, I would not accept blame for that..wahehe). Most importantly, I love having jellybean (her name) because it lets me experience the joy of "motherhood" minus the pain of giving birth..wahehehe.